What adverb defines the situation where my "on-the-side" job takes up 12 hours of my day?

Ironic? Ridiculous? (Oxy)moronic?

Seriously though.

I think telling myself that this job is an on-the-side thing is a coping mechanism for me to 1) accept it, and 2) not go crazy about getting up at 6am and coming home at 6pm and having my mind become so robotized that I forget my life goals and dreams in the process.

I can't help myself but argue with everyone who dares tell me that this is normal. And you know what, if I say it's not normal for me, then it's not normal for me.